Difference between the preschooler and my tween..

Me: joy , I love u..
Joy: ....... (No response)

Me: Grace I love u.
Grace: mama i love u more + hug

Awwww... the time will come when my pre schooler feels that it's no longer "cool" to express her love for her mama... Will cherish the last of such baby moments.. 

My sensitive child..

Is it a coincidence or does most sensitive kids Like to wear pom pom skirts? The 2 other sensitive kids I happened to know seem to like them too..

Vera is having one of her outburst in this pic. She was supposed to make her bed this morning. But as she was rushing For her art class, she simply threw her blanket on her bed. Papa said no throwing. If she needed help in folding, she can bring it out to ask for help. And thus began the start of cold war.

She refused to ask. Instead she chose to scream and cry. Papa repeated the same instructions in a firm tone (not yelling). This continue for probably another 10 mins before papa threw away the blanket to outside the door. It made her cried and scream even worse. She started to 滚在地上 crying hysterically. This was the time when I just came back from the clinic.

I told her that if she wants she can come over and hug me and tell me what happen. She refused insisting that I go to her instead. I repeated it again. And we probably go thru this for another 20 mins before she finally came to me. We hug for a long time before I ask her what happened and explained what should b done.

Photo by Grace thus so blur..

She walked to her papa and apologise (which is so rare) Took her blanket and folded and put it back on the bed.

It was tiring but I'm glad there s a happy ending to it. I'm not sure how many battles we have to go thru before we see the light at the end of the tunnel. But we will take each battle as it comes. I know she's struggling inside her small body, to come to terms with all the emotions and behaviour etc.. but we will battle it together my dear baby..

P/s : thankful that her art teacher was understanding in the last min cancellation.

What an eventful night..

Have been driving non stop for the last 2.5hrs.. appt at bkt panjang ended at 9pm and headed home..  was pretty happy that it was a chop chop appt n i probably could still see the girls if the traffic was good..

Went up bke..and the next thing I knew, I was at the wdl customs viaduct stuck in a super bad jam with hundreds of motorists. I hadn't switched on the gps coz I thought it was one of the routes I didn't need to. I had after all stayed at BP for >6yrs before moving to SK.. I knew it was BKE>SLE>TPE .. what I didn't know was I should exit when I see CTE.. bcoz CTE >SLE.. haiz.. when I realize my booboo, I had alrdy passed the woodland ave exit and on my left, cars were jam to the brim and the signs read causeway.. I decided to go up the viaduct..tjinking it would lead me to any one of the expressway. I was wrong again. There, hundreds of motorists were jam packed the 2 lanes (though it clearly wrote motor cycle in 1 lane and car on the other). I was stuck. Really stuck.  And the motorists all seem like ants crowding on food. If i went an inch closer to make way, even more would come from behind to fill up the gap.  I wanted to cry.  Wanted to just drop the car there and walk home. No one gave way. There must be thousands of motorists and all are neck to neck.. I prayed to God hoping that He would send superman or iron man who could just carry me and the car back home. Of coz this didn't happen. I prayed that God help protect me and the car thru the journey. I wasn't an experienced driver and this isn't something I've done before.

I probably was stuck on the viaduct for an hr before there were proper dividers to separate the 2 lanes and I was finally not touching the motorists. My mind kept thinking that there definitely would b a u-turn sign ahead and before I knew it, I was at the immigration. Omg ! I'm really chopping my passport. Told the officer abt my booboo and asked if there would b a legal u-turn ahead. He called and check. The answer was no. I had to go to JB and chop and come back again..he said i could also pump some petrol before coming back..I was thankful I had my passport (coz it's always in the car) but probably tat was why his answer was no...haiz.. anyway I continued my (mis)adventure.

There was little jam at jb and even before reaching the jb custom, I was still hoping to find a gap or detour or something. I also thought of just illegally making a u turn but I scare the car can't tahan the kerb.

Finally chopped at the jb side.. but I still couldn't find my u-turn.. and not long after i was up on a super long and quiet highway..  ahhh!! Where am I going and what have I Done!? Why didn't I switch on my gps after my appt !?? Would I end up in melaka before I knew it? By now my hp had no more data roaming..no more internet..

I probably travelled for another 20 mins or eternity before the highway finally had an exit. I just took it and did a u turn.. and there , the petrol station. All right. Pump. Better make my time worth (slightly). Did consider getting my magnum as well..lol..but I'm coughing mad now.. better not..

Saw the sign saying wdl and I followed.. jam this time again.. both the jb one and a jialat sg one..  haiz.. by the time I chop both side, it was 11pm...2 hrs . . Then took my bke >sle > tpe.. Wanted to kiss the floor when I reached home.

William came me a hug. He asked if I was hungry.. I must have felt like a kid crying after a fall..i felt lousy but was glad that I was finally home.

I was glad that nothing bad happened to me or the car. I did witness a car/motorist accident right after i chop the sg custom on the way back.

Kept telling myself that I need to drive carefully bcoz it's going to b tricky if I hit any one or anything.

Probably not going to drive for a while.. cox I'm too tired and stressed out by all these driving..

#mistakesonlyLENAmake #misadventure #nomoredriving #马路白痴

Paktor morning

The uncle decided to bring me out for breakfast.. #paktor.. didn't know where he was going.. and when we reached, I was kinda surprised.. 

It's one of the hipster cafes la..lol.. it's rare for us.. Coz being the practical me, always felt that these kind of breakfasts are over priced.. and indeed, when I saw the menu, my mind were ringing with all the alarms..lol.. "so expensive and will it b filling" and the likes of it.. but of Coz, I can't say right..  can't dampen the mood ...lol.. else next time don't even have paktor dates anymore..

I ordered a French toast and he ordered eggs and toast.. we each ordered a coffee.. 

To be honest, the French toast was v nice..fluffy and not oily.. one of the better ones I've tried..

The bill came up to $45.. Lol.. 😲 this was what I felt in my mind.. hahaha..  damn.. I still prefer my kaya toast anytime..

But Yes, I'm thankful for my man.. for making the effort to spend time together..

Next stop.. can u guess where we are?

Gardens by the Bay.. hahaha.. our fav place...

Came here yday with the kids and my mama but it was too crowded.. so came here again to enjoy the sakura before our annual pass expire this week..

Pretty flowers and matching pink man.. hahaha 

Loving all the pics.. haha.. I'm not as gifted in camera taking as the rest..  looking forward to Rome with him.. haha.. mini moon.. 

And that wraps up our paktor morning..  heading to office for work.. lol.. 

Bible verse

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/jos.1.9.NIV

This was what our cell leader shared yday.. thought it was a very meaningful verse and wanted to record it down.. he was telling us how challenging it is to come to cell, with the arrival of their #2.. and despite the challenges, he just paste this verse in him..  so that he remembers to always put God in his priorities..

After cell, I reflected on myself too.. it's a shame. . Coz even though it's easier for me to go to cell, I hardly look forward to it.. I  always have a thousand excuses .. be it the girls being sick la, my mama in hosp, work etc.. and the list goes on. But today when I look at my leader, I just stand in awe of him and his wife. They don't own a car nor have a maid. Their #1 is the same age as the twins , but she is not easy. If i thought Vera was challenging , their #1 was easily double of that. Their #2 just turned 1 mth old..

So when he said how it's a struggle to come every Friday, I can totally relate to it. If it was me, I probably ask mr choo to bring one or 2 girls while I stay at home with the rest. But he came. Faithfully and certainly, week after week.

Need to remind myself to put God first in all that I do. To remember to read the bible and to lead a life worthy of Him. May the cause overcome the discomfort. May I always remember to seek God first, no matter how uncomfortable I can be.

Feeling not that good after a photo shoot.. didn't bring a black jacket for the shoot coz I was only told abt it the night before..  I had long outgrown my jackets and it's tough to find something that's my size and flattering..  haiz.. I brought my white one and in the end , was told to borrow from a guy colleague which I could barely fit. 

Felt terrible abt that..  people must have thought I'm trying to b outstanding by not adhering to the dress code..

I did rush to a shop I frequent to see if I could find anything suitable but they had stop selling suits.. 

Note to self.. either invest in one or just potang the next shoot..

This is too hurting to my soul.. 😔

And we are here at our fav PD clinic.. camping here waiting for it to open.. Grace is still not well yet and her cough seems to have worsen..

She was coughing the whole night and I only manage to zz at 230am..😭

Decided to bring her down again to see the PD but bcoz papa choo need to serve in church, it means that I need to bring her to Gleneagles in the early morning before rushing down to Mt E to settle mama hospitalization discharge and to bring her home before bringing us home.. and it's so tempting to ask papa choo to just cancel his commitments today.. trust me.. the temptation is real..  the thought of needing to drive down in the morning in the crazy traffic plus lack of zzz...

Said a silent prayer that God helped me survive the morning traffic and smoother the many errands today.

Thankfully we manage to reach the clinic at 8am, first in queue.. hopefully the PD comes in soon! Hope we survive !

Thank God for t.v. in the clinic.. I'm exhausted while waiting..  we played uno so many many times while waiting for the clinic to open..