Came home very late today bcoz of work. . So late that even uncle pig has fallen asleep on grace bed, while for grace, she was found sleeping diagonally right in the centre of my bed. I lifted her and adjusted her to b right next to me and took many glances at her. I put my finger under my nose to check if she was breathing. I couldn't feel her breath.. or mayb I didn't know how to do it. Juz as I was wondering , I heard her snores... 😅 yes all my 3 kids snore.. juz to what extent. I kiss her n kiss n continued to kiss her, wondering if she would wake up and look at me. I wondered if all these was juz a dream , a wonderful dream or is it for real that I am now a mother of 3.. and my gem is juz sleeping next to me. It seems so surreal that I am so blessed , to have all and so unworthy to have all of these.
And the fear in me grew , that one day this might all end. Before I let the fear grow deeper , I juz wanna pray and b grateful for the many blessings that God has given to me and my family.
So many things have happened since my last blog entry and I won't hv stumbled back to my blog if I wasn't looking for some encouraging verses for a friend who was having some struggles in her work. Indeed, life is always a lot easier when we r closer to God. As I looked at the no. Of entries that I've made in the respective yrs, I'm also guilty of not giving God enough "air time". Of coz God being God, he doesn't complain or becomes jealous or do funny stunts. But looking back , much as the struggles of infertility had occupied me previously , I was strong becoz I had God. As things come to past , human being human, forget and become distracted. Mi included. I hope this will b the start of many intimate entries back with the Lord again .
At this juncture , I just wanna pray for this friend who is angry abt the many ups n downs happening at her workplace , I pray that God you remove the hatred and the angst in her, n let her realign her goals and focus back to you. Man always disappoint and fail us, but God is the only one who never fails. I pray that You give her wisdom to manage the relationship between people, n give her favour in Man.
I also want to pray for my friends who are having issues, be it with work / family / relationships that God you lift them and carry them in their walk with You. I pray that they will come to know You n have peace in them.
I also want to pray for a friend who has recently come back to You , that You guide her in her small spiritual steps and use her well in her workplace . I pray that You speak to her and let her experience Yr presence every day. As I see her taking her small baby steps , I am also reminded of my own baby Christian walk many yrs ago. As she seems Me as a role model , I am even more touched and encouraged of God's presence thru her. Indeed, let us walk together and come closer to you Lord! -Amen
Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you. Remember, O Lord, your compassion and unfailing love, which you have shown from long ages past. Do not remember the rebellious sins of my youth. Remember me in the light of your unfailing love, for you are merciful, O Lord. The Lord is good and does what is right; he shows the proper path to those who go astray. He leads the humble in doing right, teaching them his way. The Lord leads with unfailing love and faithfulness all who keep his covenant and obey his demands. For the honor of your name, O Lord, forgive my many, many sins.
- Psalm 25:4-11
