Little Mercies

Thank God for the little mercies shown upon me! Even though it was raining, it stopped whenever I needed it to.. Thank God for that!

The Wrong Order?

Have we ever received a wrong order of our food before? ie. Ordered a fish but it turned out to be beef? and usually we'll always insist a change of our food.. but what abt God? Has He ever given us a wrong order? Last nite the topic at CG was abt the wrong order.. somet times when we pray for a specific thing, God doesnt give it.. does that mean that God has forgotten? Or did God issue a wrong order? No, He is the Almighty and when He gives, He gives FAR BETTER than we can ever imagine.. His plans for us are always FAR BETTER than we can ever dream of.. and when I hear this msg, I really feel that it's so true in my heart..

Every time when I pray for my work, God delivers, not juz the amt tat I prayed for but MANY MANY times more.. and I know that this is only possible bcoz it is God.. Today's msg did make me calmer and maybe sometimes what we want is so specific but only He knows best and whats best for us may not always be in the way/form tat we anticipate it will be but I'm sure God knows whats ideal for us and we juz have to be patient and obey...

-- Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act. Don't worry abt evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes. Stop being angry! Turn from yr rage! Do not lose yr temper - it only leads to harm. For the wicked will be destroyed, but those who trust in the Lord will possess the land. (Psalm 37: 7-9)

Are We ready?

Recently, the idea of adoption kept popping into my mind...especially after a powerful message by Pastor Dale on Hope... I ask hubz if he would be open to it and his reply was that God has asked him to a long time ago but I wasnt open then.. at that spur of the moment, i told him to prepare the process coz i tink i'm ready... or am I?

Maybe yes, maybe no.. i really dont know.. after hearing the sermon, images of Joy playing with her kid sister flashes.. i know i know, she's been wanting for a mei-mei for the longest time ever.. and it hurts, when I see her play by herself.. but will I be able to accept the new member as family, w/o any prejudice and really treat her as my own? Will the sisters fight? Will Joy ever regret her desire of having another child? Is my heart big enuff to love both daughters and will william ever have time for me then? I really hope for a complete family, not that its not complete now, juz that with 2 kids, it kinda make the whole family more completed..

Lord, you are the Almighty, and you are the creator of everything. I pray that you give me the peace in choosing the paths, direct me in Your Plans, and guide me along.. i'm fearful and I pray that you carry me in yr ways..

A new Beginning...

I've been wanting to do this and while I was trying to set up a "new" blog.. i found one which hubz created for me a long time ago...i thought that it would be a gd idea to keep track of my emotions and maybe one day, just one day, when God grants me a 2nd child, I can be reminded of His grace towards me & my family..