Monday, August 27, 2018

真的长大了

Ever since Mr choo became the village head of our condo, he has been busy with all the night meetings.. haiz.. and tonight is one of those nights when our appts clash. His meeting starts at 7pm while mine starts at 9pm. Plan was to have dinner with the girls then he will run off at 7pm. I will head off at 8plus and hope that he comes back soon.

I offered to push my appt to a later slot so that the girls can zzz first. Joy says to go ahead with my appt and she will do the closing.

I reached home by 10pm and was pleasantly surprised. All 3 of them have zzz with papa choo not in sight. (His meeting over run and he hasn't got back)

Thankful that things went well.  真的长大了。

Friday, August 24, 2018

Bible verse

Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord ’s purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/pro.19.21.NIV

Have seen the client in the morning.. she's v optimistic and determined to put up a fight... she's going to see the doctors on Mon and discuss the course of treatment. I'll b meeting her again, to do the nominations and admins of the existing policies.

Death is inevitable. It happens to everyone and one day my turn will come. As much as I try to remind myself, the feelings of despair kept coming back. I wished I could do more for her and her family. I wished I had been more insistent and convinced her to top up her insurance coverage when she was still able to. I wished I had stopped her from working so hectic when she recovered fr her treatment. I wished I had done more.

Trying not to let things that I can't control affect me too much. It has affected the few appts yday and I'm hoping that I pick myself up before the 230pm appt comes along. I need to b professional abt it. They are still clients who will need my advice and recommendations. I need to stand up. Praying for strength to carry on the rest of the day, praying for wisdom and words to touch the lives of people I meet. God, help me help others. In Jesus name I pray, amen

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Feeling emo..

A client whom I'm supposed to meet for review texted me that she has cancer relapse - stage 4 brain cancer. My heart sank. I had just done her CI claims abt 6 yrs ago and since then she has been in the pink of health with the doctors clearing her during the yrly reviews.

I thought we had long send the enemy away. Why and how did it suddenly return? I remember doing 2 Critical illness claims in 2013 - both were women below their 40s. We went thru the chemos together, the claims etc and life went back to normal.. so i thought.

The other client had a relapse last yr - stage 4 also and had gone thru 2 rounds of surgeries. When I saw her last mth, it was as though she was skinny to the bones but she was determined to fight this battle. I hope she wins.

When the msg came saying that this client has a brain cancer relapse, my heart paused. Why did both of them have to suffer from this and again? I'm meeting her tomorrow morning as per arrange and I'm praying that God will grant me the wisdom and right words to touch her and encourage her.

Moments like this make me realize that we wont always be with our loved ones. Seize the day and remember to love and hug our family today as we leave for work etc.

Bible verse

The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.” Zephaniah 3:17 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/zep.3.17.NIV

Tuesday, August 21, 2018

Bible verses

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. Hebrews 10:35 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/heb.10.35.NIV

Just when I'm feeling perplexed and a lack of confidence from some appts, I went to my bible app and saw this today. So on point and thankful.

My philosophy has always been simple. If i do my best, and in an upright way, then I will surrender the rest to God. Praying for wisdom for the upcoming appts and may I have the abilities to help them to the best of my knowledge..

Saturday, August 18, 2018

Sisters

Had to leave home early for a morning appt at wdl and William offered to drop me there before sending Vera for her art class. But when we woke up this morning, Grace was still v much sound asleep with joy. We decided to let them continue their beauty sleep and (hopefully) pray that they won't kill each other before I came home.

My appt over run and I arrange to meet them directly at compass one for lunch. They would have to train there and meet me. After which, I would have to let them head home on their own bcoz I had another appt at 2pm. That was the plan.

When I saw them at the eatery, both look refresh and Grace was super dolled up, wearing her fav clothes, with hair nicely braided.

I asked her how was it, staying with chek chek and she enjoyed it. (It was her/our first time)

 In fact her chek chek even made rosti for her , and they did some reading together. Everything was lovely dovely.  I guess that's why they say " Two's a company and three is a crowd".

Had wanted to head our separate ways after lunch if not bcoz Grace spilt her soup on me and my bag. Had to go home with them to change.


So thankful for Joy, that she stepped up in this last min arrangement. We didn't prepared them beforehand. They only got to know abt it after seeing the handwritten note papa choo left. It's heartwarming to see their sisterly love.

May they continue to love and cherish each other's company even as they grow up.


Saturday, August 11, 2018

Having only 1 child

How does it feel to only have a kid? That's the experience we will get this weekend  coz the twins are having a staycation with my mama at her fav resort.

Joy has been super excited abt the whole idea since yday after we dropped the twins there. My mom has been trying to persuade the firstborn to stay too, to no avail.

On the journey back, there was peace in the car, no squabbling over the lack of space etc. There were only mature conversations among the 3 of us. It's how things would be if twins didn't came into our lives. Yes there is peace but there would b boredom/ loneliness. I reminded joy that the reason why we tried our best to give her a sibling was bcoz each time we went to a pool, she would look with envy when other kids had siblings to play with them. I reminded her too that if she hadn't had the twins , she probably won't enjoy water play / swimming as much even if both of us were in the pool with her. I refer her to her 2 best cc kakis who hardly swim at their pools.

She slept with me last night and daddy went to the kids room. One of the treats we do occasionally when the twins are not around.

This morning we went for bf before I went for my appt. Bf wasn't chaotic. We splitted into 3: She went to find a table while I went to q and papa choo went to park the car. Super coordinated. It was also easier to find a table for 3 compared to 5.

Appt ended and I went home. She was reading the papers while papa choo was replying some emails. Shortly after she went for her tuition. To meet her at her lunch eatery after tuition.

The emptiness filled the house once she left. I tried to catch a nap but I couldn't fall asleep. Told William that perhaps now that I didn't need take care of the twins , I didn't need to replenish energy. He agreed. We spend the afternoon chatting, just the two of us. I told him that life would b so peaceful if we didn't have kids. Could zzz til we wake up naturally and go for our brunch etc. He disagreed. He felt that if we were to do this for the past 12 yrs after our marriage, we probably died of boredom or separated.

I told him that we probably travel a lot more if the kids weren't here. He agreed and added that we would always b broke bcoz of the frequent traveling, to which I had to agree.

Now in church waiting for time to pass. Papa choo and joy are serving today thus I have to attend the main service on my own. Haiz.

I'm bored.

I miss my kids..lol.

Bringing joy for her pre bday treat tonight bcoz it's her bday tom.

Time flies. It's been 11yrs since motherhood. Learnt so much during this 11yrs when they came into my life. Thankful for the opportunity. Thankful for the many blessings.

Love my family. Love my God. Can't wait for the twins to be home tom.

Friday, August 3, 2018

Bible verse

Be still before the Lord  and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Psalm 37:7 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/psa.37.7.NIV

And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/php.4.19.NIV