Update: Its almost at the end of the day. It has been an enriching experience. I'm glad I came, despite the inertia. Thankfulness.
Something abt uS: I married the love of my life at 25, and thus began our journey together as a family. Documenting this blog so that we can remember the journeys we go thru together; surviving parenthood, infertility, teenagehood and many more..
Tuesday, July 30, 2019
Change for the better
Update: Its almost at the end of the day. It has been an enriching experience. I'm glad I came, despite the inertia. Thankfulness.
Saturday, July 20, 2019
Venting
This is a venting post so be prepared.
Me: "So, can u tell me why u are standing for (committee) again?"
《Silence》
I know he's pissed/frustrated at me for asking. But I'm disappointed that he has chosen to stand for it again. AGM is Tom. 6mths ago, he was the one who was saying that after the 1yr, he would step down and bow out of it. Then few mths later, his stance change to "if he could, he would step down.." then to this couple of weeks " I would stand for another yr, just so that the impt/major things are ironed out...."
And all these were made without consulting me or the kids. Joy is clearly unhappy. She complained to me yday night. The girls were alone at home (again) bcoz his committee had a last min meeting and I happened to have a review appt which had over run. By the time I reach home, it was 9pm. I hugged the twins and chatted with them for half hr before letting them go to bed. Then chatted with the teenager til 10. It's a mum's guilt I guess. When I need to work and my kids are home alone. I hate it. Thus, I let them have a late bedtime yday.
I hated it that the family is compromised becoz of his CCAs. As much as I try to be the supportive wife, I cant. As much as I try, I cant. Especially when I just realize that this is going to go on for another yr. He says that he hopes I can see it from his perspective. But no, I cant. I tried. It's not like I never try. For the last few mths, as long as enough notice was given and he had to attend, I would block out the date and bring the girls out , with a peaceful heart.
Many thoughts went thru my mind before I blurted out that qn. It's a spiteful qn and I know it will pissed him off. But trust me, that was the most well packaged way I could think of, with a tinge of spitefulness. There were many other ways that were going thru my mind... like " I will quit my job tomorrow to be a homemaker. U can take on whatever portfolio u want. I will take care of the kids." or "Pass me back the proxy form. I've decided to attend the meeting."
But I zipped my mouth n stopped those statements from coming out. (Trust me, I'm still tempted) There is no point in saying something to score that momentous goal but long term hurt. I know. Just venting.
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.
Proverbs 16:18 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/pro.16.18.NIV
Update: I just wanna do a quick update since the AGM passed last weekend. He stepped down quietly during the meeting. I didnt think he would do it but I'm happy and thankful. Joy was delighted when she heard the news yday. I know he felt that he let his teammates downs by pulling out at the 11th hr. I told him that he can still be a helpful neighbour even if he wasnt part of the committee. Anyway I'm glad that we didnt tear each other apart to have to reach to this. In fact, his teammates organized a farewell dinner for him last night. He brought the twins along while I spend some time alone with joy, my firstborn. I do enjoy "satellite parenting" where I can concentrate fully on each child. Happy week everyone!
Thursday, July 18, 2019
July - the mth of feasting and celebrations
So we went for an early lunch on my actual day before picking up the girls. Managed to try 探鱼 which I've wanted to try for the longest time but never got to doing it. Glad that the food was good.
I cried shortly after this shot. Was overwhelmed with emotions when I saw the surprise tiramisu. It has been a long time since he baked anything for me. This is like a cake he always bake when we were dating and I'm so grateful that we have gone such a long journey together. Praying that we both grow old together, that we be able to witness our girls growth over the years.
Went for HDL. And it wasn't even planned. Happened to pass by and the staff gave us some vouchers to entice us to come..hahaha.. it was their first time and uncle choo and I both agreed that it was definitely more affordable than beauty pot though we both preferred the soup there. The kids had so much fun there that the dinner lasted for 2hrs++ and by the time we reached home it was way past the kids bedtime. Thankful for all the blessings that I have. Thank God.
We also went for movies a few days after my bday coz it was a school holiday. I wanted to watch toy story 4 so grace accompany me coz she isn't a action packed movie person. I'm glad we could split teams.. hahaha..
Team toy story 4 on the left and spiderman on the right
My slimming journey part 3
Weight: 73.3kg
Tuesday, July 16, 2019
Devotion
Prayers to Break Strongholds
What seeds have you been planting into the soil of your life? At times I’ve planted the wrong seeds into my heart and allowed woundedness, wrong thinking, bitterness, and even sin to take root, not realizing an unwanted harvest would result. Other times I thought I was planting good into my life, yet I allowed bad things to take root, with not great results. Then there were the times the enemy himself sprinkled seeds of doubt and faithlessness into my seeds of faith, hope, and love. The resulting crop was unexpected, because I hadn’t realized the enemy had been in my garden, and I soon discovered the enemy’s tares were difficult to weed.
Maybe you can relate. As you look at the state of the garden of your heart, maybe you see that unwanted weeds, or strongholds, have taken root. This is not the garden you intended to plant, and now you are at a loss about how to repair your crop. The apostle Paul, in Galatians 6:7–8, talks about this problem. He says, “Make no mistake about this: You can never make a fool out of God. Whatever you plant is what you’ll harvest. If you plant in the soil of your corrupt nature, you will harvest destruction. But if you plant in the soil of your spiritual nature, you will harvest everlasting life.”
A stronghold is when the enemy’s seeds of anger, self-pity, a poverty mindset, lies, shame, depression, grief, confusion, addiction, lust, laziness, and pride result in a harvest of sin, ineffectiveness, endless struggles, failures, and even fatigue, pain, and illness. Some of these strongholds we planted ourselves through ignorance, bitterness, hate, woundedness, or confusion. Other strongholds have taken root through the work of the enemy, who sowed trauma, difficulties, grief, and wrongs committed against us into our lives.
However these strongholds came to be, we can use prayer to weed them from our hearts. In fact, prayer can act as a sort of spiritual weed killer to poison their very roots. When it comes to our hearts, we must protect the flowers and kill the weeds.
Pray with me: Father, demolish any stronghold that holds captive my heart and mind and place within me the seeds of your choosing. I desire my life to be used to bring forth the goodness and majesty of your Word. In Jesus’s name and through the power of His blood, amen.
Source: https://www.bible.com/reading-plans/15577/day/3?ret=1
Started a reading plan recently and haven't been keeping up to it religiously. But the msg that I read today happens to be so on point to what I'm feeling now at this moment. So decided to pen it down so that I would remember.. planting the right seeds and that in all ways, pray and seek God. Ask him to remove all the weeds in our lives, that all the harmful thoughts like anger, jealousy, fear be removed. In Jesus name I pray, amen!