Juz as I was complaining about the long wait in my previous entry , within 5 mins, while still attending a meeting, I stumbled onto this:
Her husband Elkanah would say to her, “Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don’t you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don’t I mean more to you than ten sons?” 1 Samuel 1:8
I've read this for so many times before but today, I didn't purposely look for this to make me feel better. I was reading on Ruth yesterday, so today, when I switched on the e-bible, it juz flipped to the next chapter, which is Samuel! Yes, doesnt "I mean more to you than ten sons"? What more can I ask when I already have one beloved Joy and a doting hubby?
Amazing how God work in ways that we cant comprehend and how things happen not by accident but for a purpose! Dear Lord, I'm grateful for the little messages you drop to me... I know and I have to remember that U will do the best for me, my family. Thank you Lord
Friday, February 11, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
3rd week part 2
Picked joy yesterday n the teacher told me tat Joy has been telling her tat she's gonna hv a Mei Mei soon. My heart sanked.. Sorry joy, mummy's not successful tis mth again.. Hopefully there's hope in e following mth..Quite tempted to embark onto the next stage but we can't due to a lack of Funds..
God I know the word is on Patience.. I juz pray tat u provide a solution soon for us.. Much as we can't comprehend, but if u can feed the birds and clothe the beautiful flowers, wat more us right?
God I know the word is on Patience.. I juz pray tat u provide a solution soon for us.. Much as we can't comprehend, but if u can feed the birds and clothe the beautiful flowers, wat more us right?
3rd week of the month
My emotions hv always been on a rollercoaster .. Now on third week of the mth n pre- signs of menses r here already, which means that it's not successful again tis mth. Which also means tat when we go to Korea next week, it's most likely to hit my period n tat kinda suck .. Told hubz abt it n he reply " why am I still tracking? I shld hv complete faith tat the Lord will guide n provide".
God I do hv faith in u but much as I try not to count the days, it always pop up in my mind . God I pray tat u help me keep my focus n rely completely in You.
God I do hv faith in u but much as I try not to count the days, it always pop up in my mind . God I pray tat u help me keep my focus n rely completely in You.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
CNY@ Melaka
When u have a child n it's cny, friends and relatives usually take this opportunity to ask the Golden Question: " When are you going to have another one?" I've taken this quite at my stride nowadays. Most of the time I will juz reply with honestly, which usually will lead to an awkward silence (haha!), and the person wont be able to react or divert..but I feel that there was no pt in dwelling on the NEED to have another child, coz I alrdy know of the importance...so yes, awkward answer is preferred.. :)
But when my ah-ma of nearly 90yrs old asked e same qn, my reply to her turns out to be a more diplomatic one.."tat we r happy w juz having one". To some one who has given birth to 9 children, including my dad, it's a no-no to stop at one, and a bigger NO to stop w/o producing a heir to hubz family. Well, I can juz conclude 2 things: 1) people of my ah-ma generation can juz hv many many children, where in a land of probabilities, there will be some who excel subsequently n some who's juz a bummer in life.. It didn't matter if they had e $$ to finance e kids nor bring them for enrichments.. Haha..considering that my dad had to sell kueh to earn his allowances when he was in pri sch..anyway, it didnt matter if financing the child's upbringing was impt coz they would survive anyway.. 2) 不孝有三，无后位大 Nevertheless, in order to further dwell on this with her, I thought a faster and simpler way was to just say that we are stopping at one..she didnt need to know my struggles, and does she need to worry abt us.. :)
P/s: This entry was written half way before my iphone went swimming in the toilet bowl.. so i kinda had to finish it only when I came back fr msia..thus the non-connected..hehe...
But when my ah-ma of nearly 90yrs old asked e same qn, my reply to her turns out to be a more diplomatic one.."tat we r happy w juz having one". To some one who has given birth to 9 children, including my dad, it's a no-no to stop at one, and a bigger NO to stop w/o producing a heir to hubz family. Well, I can juz conclude 2 things: 1) people of my ah-ma generation can juz hv many many children, where in a land of probabilities, there will be some who excel subsequently n some who's juz a bummer in life.. It didn't matter if they had e $$ to finance e kids nor bring them for enrichments.. Haha..considering that my dad had to sell kueh to earn his allowances when he was in pri sch..anyway, it didnt matter if financing the child's upbringing was impt coz they would survive anyway.. 2) 不孝有三，无后位大 Nevertheless, in order to further dwell on this with her, I thought a faster and simpler way was to just say that we are stopping at one..she didnt need to know my struggles, and does she need to worry abt us.. :)
P/s: This entry was written half way before my iphone went swimming in the toilet bowl.. so i kinda had to finish it only when I came back fr msia..thus the non-connected..hehe...
Thursday, February 3, 2011
A step of faith
Joy's been quite a darling recently.. she will touch my tummy and says "mei mei is inside, i wanna touch her"
Sometimes I will play along w her n sometimes I will believe her.. that it's her child instinct telling me tat i'm pregnant.. funny how one will trust a 3 yr old in this aspect but i guess it's bcoz this is the only hope/dream tat i can cling on...
There were times when after playing "pretend" and my period comes, the disappointment fully consumes me such tat there were nothing much I can do except hug a pillow to cry.. but I know tat God loves us n much as we don't understand y we need to go thru all these, I juz need to rem tat God loves us and each challenge given to us is a leap of faith and He's always with us.
- When there's faith, there's hope..
Sometimes I will play along w her n sometimes I will believe her.. that it's her child instinct telling me tat i'm pregnant.. funny how one will trust a 3 yr old in this aspect but i guess it's bcoz this is the only hope/dream tat i can cling on...
There were times when after playing "pretend" and my period comes, the disappointment fully consumes me such tat there were nothing much I can do except hug a pillow to cry.. but I know tat God loves us n much as we don't understand y we need to go thru all these, I juz need to rem tat God loves us and each challenge given to us is a leap of faith and He's always with us.
- When there's faith, there's hope..
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
MYOB..
Have you ever met with people who's ever so insistent abt their views? Such that they will just go on and on and on, abt their views and that only they are right? I always dread meeting hubz's relatives coz they will always insist that hubz quit his baking job and go back to being an engineer.. but in the first place, shldnt the decision be based on his personal choice?
Hubz has always been a household person. He can do all the housework and he enjoys it while i've always been doing relatively well in my sales career. So many years ago, even before Joy came into the picture, we have already decided that should we need a full time parent at home, it will be him since both of us enjoy our own environments, which can also be classified as Division of Labour or Specialization of trade?? But after so many years, his relatives were never supportive, always ridicule him tat he should come out and get a proper job. But hello, we dont need his income to maintain the household. But what we really need, is his time and energy in maintaining the household! Juz becoz you guys need a dual income, doesnt mean that the whole world needs that! Please wake up to yr ideas Please!
The 2nd part that i cant tolerate is that ever since hubz started his biz at fortune centre, this same grp of relatives kept inssisting that we change our place: to a HDB shopfront, whereby we can stay on the 2nd floor and he can operate his biz on the 1st floor. Their rationale is at least we can save the rent (maybe a couple thousnds), but at the same time, we would hv to spend hundreds of thousands just to buy that place!!??? this silly conversation has carried on for so many mths that i'm so sick of it.. if it really works, why dont you do that? It irritates me when I see people so insistent, and yet, when it comes to starting a biz, they juz shrug away and say its not for them! Since its not for them, then please MYOB! Please understand that much as yr idea is gd, we dont have the capital to get another place, nor am i interested to stay on the 2nd floor. Our stand now is juz to build our current client database, and since our bakery is in relatively town, that's where we are sticking to. You can decide on yr own biz, but please dont stick yr nose into ours! MYOB!
- But God chose what the world thinks foolish to shame the wise, and God chose what the world thinks weak to shame the strong. 1 Corr 1: 27
Hubz has always been a household person. He can do all the housework and he enjoys it while i've always been doing relatively well in my sales career. So many years ago, even before Joy came into the picture, we have already decided that should we need a full time parent at home, it will be him since both of us enjoy our own environments, which can also be classified as Division of Labour or Specialization of trade?? But after so many years, his relatives were never supportive, always ridicule him tat he should come out and get a proper job. But hello, we dont need his income to maintain the household. But what we really need, is his time and energy in maintaining the household! Juz becoz you guys need a dual income, doesnt mean that the whole world needs that! Please wake up to yr ideas Please!
The 2nd part that i cant tolerate is that ever since hubz started his biz at fortune centre, this same grp of relatives kept inssisting that we change our place: to a HDB shopfront, whereby we can stay on the 2nd floor and he can operate his biz on the 1st floor. Their rationale is at least we can save the rent (maybe a couple thousnds), but at the same time, we would hv to spend hundreds of thousands just to buy that place!!??? this silly conversation has carried on for so many mths that i'm so sick of it.. if it really works, why dont you do that? It irritates me when I see people so insistent, and yet, when it comes to starting a biz, they juz shrug away and say its not for them! Since its not for them, then please MYOB! Please understand that much as yr idea is gd, we dont have the capital to get another place, nor am i interested to stay on the 2nd floor. Our stand now is juz to build our current client database, and since our bakery is in relatively town, that's where we are sticking to. You can decide on yr own biz, but please dont stick yr nose into ours! MYOB!
- But God chose what the world thinks foolish to shame the wise, and God chose what the world thinks weak to shame the strong. 1 Corr 1: 27
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Blessings from work
Lord, I'm thankful for the blessings you've granted me in my biz.. it makes me always wonder.. y is it so easy for u to bless my biz but nv with a baby? is it bcoz of my utmost faith I have in you when it comes work? N yet when it comes to the latter, I'm always trying so hard that I may be ignoring your words? Lord, I surrender to you.. in ALL aspects of my life..i pray tat you give me the peace, the ability to have complete obedience in U and tat you give me wisdom to share yr miracles with a fellow friend so that they may too be able to know you more
- Amen -
- Amen -
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