Eve of party

Tonight felt like eve of wedding night again! And I think a lot of my friends are feeling the nerves like me.. hahahaha.. 

I was just ranting to a couple of them that I felt like super nervous and they said they too! Hahahahah! And honestly, most of the hard (heart) work are all done by my beloved guests.. hahahaha.. so many of them are doing little speeches that I’m so excited abt it! And I’m so grateful and immensely blessed. 

It’s midnight and I can still hear uncle Choo doing the final prep for the deco stuff for tomorrow.. I really wanna zzzz .. can he faster come back ? 🥹🥹🥹 

After 20 years, I don’t think I can sleep without him.. hahahaha.. 

excited abt tomorrow, and also grateful for ❤️❤️❤️

Couple trip part III

The one week honeymoon ended. Was quite thankful to be back home towards the end. Coz I was starting to feel sick, and bored in China. Hahahaha.. 

It was a good break, a good pause to just focus on the man, even though in his POV, I still worked a lot while on the trip. Hahahaha.. oh well.. 

Trying to either approve cases using my small phone or reply clients / advisers text.. this is his evidence 🤣🤣🤣

Thankful to be able to spend this 1 week focusing on him and him alone. Thankful that even though we didn’t tick any awesome Michelin food, or bought a lot of stuff, it was good just to enjoy each other presence. 

It was good to sleep early and it was good to wake up naturally (although my naturally is still abt 7ish). 

We took so many pretty photos, cause he said I will need it for my LinkedIn articles.. hahaha.. 

Funny old man. 

May we continue to grow old together. My man. 

Happy birthday to me!

Finally got a chance to burn some calories today. Hardly exercise for the whole of June coz helper is away. And then by the time we do the sch drop offs, the sun is so bright that it’s so hard to swim. Plus I was lazy too la.. haha

Decided to do something for myself today. And it was nice to do a swim and just laze by the pool beds after that. 

Not doing anything fancy today coz no helper and I just didn’t wan William to 忙到半死 just for my bday. Everyday is a happy day as long as everyone’s healthy. 

Went for a simple lunch at our usual Korean restaurant before he dropped me off to meet Joy at TTSH for her medical appt. Long story short, she’s going to start some injections every week from next week. I just pray that this would work and that her condition would improve. 

By the time we were done, it was almost 6pm. Rushed home to see William still busy preparing for dinner. I was supposed to pick Joash but by the time the TTSH appt was done, it was kinda too late. 

He made Korean cold noodles! And it tasted to my liking.. hahahaha.. it’s not like the typical kind where the noodles are gooey, his version is slightly better and more suited for me (I feel but I could b biased too.. hahaha) 

I’ve been craving for Korean cold noodles for a long time and I’m glad this worked out! Hahahha.. then we could always have this anytime we wanted. And the best part is we could top it up with our fav meats and not the miserable few pieces of meat that we get when we dine out. 

Had so much emotions as I see this picture. 

孩子长大了，我们都老了。我想我人生中做最对的决定就是嫁给你，跟你一起把这些人带大。。哈哈哈哈。。生日愿望很简单。希望我爱的人和爱我的人都健康、快乐。

Checkmate!

I don’t remember the last time we quarrelled on Xmas day. 

He felt frustrated coz the twins and their cousins were glued to the TV but Joash was bored. Eventually he flared up at the twins and we all left for home. 

In the car, he was still fuming mad. Even after the twins apologised for their behaviour, every cell in him was still 😡. I was angry at him being angry. 

I mean what more do u wan la.. and he kept going on and on abt “next time no more xxxx..” which irks me coz don’t pull empty threats when we all know it will never happen. Eventually the kids will realize those are empty shells and be no longer afraid of them anyways. I rather you pulled sustainable threats, threats that can be fulfilled.

Anyway I eventually yelled at him and ask him what more does he want, coz he definitely has ruined everyone’s evening, esp on Xmas day. 

I rem going into Joash room to make him zzz, crying silently. By the time I was done, the girls were in their respective rooms and no man in sight. He has disappeared or walked out on us, leaving behind his hp. 

Rage filled me. I text him a few msgs coz I suddenly rem he might be able to see it on his smart watch. Eventually I switch off his hp and hid it. “Since he doesn’t need his hp, then he doesn’t need one.” - that was what was going thru my mind. I wanted to put it into the freezer but my logical mind told myself that I will end up paying for the new phone. There were more creative places that I wanted to put in, like inside his boots, or on top of the Nespresso machine. But at that point in time, I wasn’t sure if I wanted him to find the hidden treasure so I simply kept it inside my cupboard. 

Rage turned into fear as the time passes by. I was now worried for his safety. Not that I fear he will be kidnapped. But more of what if he has a heart attack and doesn’t have his hp to call the ambulance (or-bi-good right, say my spiteful self).. I think my feelings are all over the place. 

Eventually he came back, in what seem like eternity. Relieved but still angry. 

My old self would have got into a battle of words, just like how the street fighters players K.O the opponent. But the me now understands that sparring will just drag the time further and both of us would b exhuasted. 

I simply covered my head with blanket and that was when I started to think logically of the options I have. I could flare up and explode, like the angry guy in “Inside out” or I could examine and ask myself what was I feeling upset abt.  I listed the things I was upset abt in my mind. I felt that the issues weren’t huge when I listed them calmly. 

He moved his first step by placing a small pillow on my head. lol…the old me will just throw it back and explode la.. coz I had every right to do that when he disappeared ya… 

I considered my moves. I could do that or I could heave a sigh of relief and be thankful that at least he bothered to try pacify me. So I returned back playfully. 

Repeated for a few times and eventually we were good. 

I’m happy that I took charge of my own emotions and moves. I know that I shouldn’t let anyone make me feel xxxx. I’m responsible for myself. I can make myself happy, and I didn’t need someone else’s response to make me feel that.

It’s a huge step for people with big emotions. 

How much time do we have?

不知道是不是因为自己老了，所以突然开始问这个问题。如果女人的平均年龄是八十，那我应该还有三十年。如果大叔和他老爸一样，我和他只剩下不到两年，不到700天。那我们要怎么用我们在一起的时间呢？

The realisation that we might not be together led to fear and emo. Like how I had taken for granted that we are young and we are going to be with each other til 七老八十. 

If I have only 2 days left on this earth, what would I be doing then? Would I still be scrolling my phone on FB / IG or watch those YouTube mukbangs? 🙊🙊🙊

Note to self: 

1) Be more mindful of my time. Not that there are any health scares etc but it is still a good reminder that I might not have all the time with this man, or with my parents and family. 

2) To cherish the times when we can still hug and have meaningful conversations together. To remind myself to set time together for dates, not simply 陪伴。to remind myself that all the msgs can wait til I reach home to reply. My time in the car is for him and solely him. (We used to have this rule of not using Hp while in the car, so that we can have conversations tog); to be more purposeful in our relationship. 

Conflict management

明明知道他在生气，可我什么都没说。我也很气他。There isn’t the perfect solution and no one is 100% right or wrong. We each have our view points. 

I was angry that he wasn’t home when the kids fever shot up. He said he was at the new house checking out the lights installation. I was guilty of not being home bcoz I was still having back to back zooms. Who am I to be angry with? If I hadn’t packed that crazy, I could have been the one at home. And to make matters worse, I was having so much guilt that I just lashed at it when I came home. 

I know I shouldn’t have. I know he’s just trying to use his small pockets of time to do the best for the family. 

I’m torn. Between the angry man and my bedtime. I’m tired but I want to mend the cold war before it drags further. 

I’m torn bcoz this is the second/third week I felt that my family were compromised bcoz I worked too much. A friend ask me yesterday why I’m working so hard. My answer to her is bcoz I wanted to prove to those who placed their trust in me that 他们没有看错。要做就要做好，要不就不做。This too shall pass. It’s the initial phrase that’s harder, I know. This is the same for all new beginnings.

The thing abt being married for 17yrs means that in a conflict like this, I no longer say spiteful things. U know.. things like “let’s split. (Split 什么鬼)?” Or pack my bags and 回娘家。lol… just suck thumb and try to look intently in his shoes and realize that 我们都错，可是我们都是为这个家付出。

I cried myself to sleep coz we were both tired. But he did kiss me in the morning before sending Vera to sch. So we are good

 

Me & You

To the man who is willing to b a frog, so that I could be his Queen. Happy 17th wedding anniversary! There isn’t much celebration today coz both of us are still exhuasted from the msia trip. I think ever since the girls have gone to primary school, we actually seldom celebrate on the actual day especially if it’s over the weekend. 

回想到当时年轻的我们，我很想和我24岁的我说谢谢。谢谢你勇敢地做这个决定，谢谢你不顾父母的反对也一定要嫁给这位大你十岁的大叔。现在的我们过的生活很简单，很开心。希望能与你一起到老。

We had a big fight yday. I guess it’s the result of lack of sleep the night before for both of us. Joash decided to “开party” and kept waking up every hr. He took charge of the entire night shift but I was wide awake laying on the bed. I didn’t dare move for fear that seeing me would worsen the situation. But we were all tired. 

Then the morning came and a series of assumptions + mistakes made him frustrated. I purposefully cut short my social appt and offered to pick him up at nex before picking grace from sch. In the end, we just quarreled our way at coffee bean. It was tiring especially when two people are severely sleep deprived. Halfway thru I just walked back to the car and wept. I regretted having another child. I shouldn’t have prayed for one more when we weren’t ready. The fear of him passing earlier than me hits me BAD plus the fact that his dad had a short life expectancy. His dad passed away at 54 and he’s 51. I know these are all numbers and it doesn’t count for anything. But the fears just crept in and slapped me in the face. 

We are all good now. Kissed and made up shortly after. I guess this is part of marriage - where 2 complete individuals come together and chart their lives together. Whatever destination we plan to head together, we will get there together. Just need to re-align and chart as plans change.

Rant

“Can we work on the pretext that you will always fall sick and therefore it’s important to have emergency back up plans when any of us are sick?”

This was what I told uncle pig today. It’s been 3 crazy nights where Joash will cry and wake up middle of the night and continue to cry for 1-2hrs before I resort to car ride. He came back with angry butt rash on Tuesday which made things worse. And as if that wasn’t bad enough , boy is also on milk strike. And to top it all up, uncle pig had an eye op on wed. 

So yes, I’m overwhelmed and sleep deprived. I feel so incompetent whenever he’s down. And told him that if we are supposed to be covering each other’s flaws, he hasn’t been doing his job. Becoz I always have that nagging feeling that I’m incompetent whenever medical emergencies happen. It’s unfair to me. Even when I’m overwhelmed or stressed at work, I stick to the plan of covering that part and never once made him worry. But he on the other hand, always try to do everything as though he is superman and never delegate out. 

Yes the right word is DELEGATE. Even when I told him that next week I might have 1-2 days where I can’t pick the twins from sch, and will most likely train the helper to do it, he insist that he will do it ! Why? Why can’t we let the helper pick the kids up on emergency days? Why can’t we let her do grocery runs ? Why is it when u are alrdy sleeping less than 4 hrs, u still insist on going to the market after u drop Joash? 

1 day of missed sweeping / mopping / laundry isn’t going to affect much at home. But 1 day of him out of action will drive everyone crazy. I need someone to take care of my kids in the morning if I happen to do the motn shift. Someone to help me do some small grocery run so that we can sleep in bcoz of our motn duties. You are not superman and you will fall sick. Can we just plan on the basis that if you will b sick LONG TERM, then what will happen? Am I supposed to stop work completely to care for the kids? Or are we going to only start training the helper when that happens? 

That was my conversation with him and hr ago. It felt so good to let it all out. It’s like phlegm stuck on my throat making me breathless. 

He agrees with my points and we have agreed on the following. (Coz I need to write notes to remind myself) 

In 1 mth time, the helper will be able to:

1) Pick the twins / Joash from sch. (Not that we will be using this regularly but it’s for emergency days) 

2) ad hoc grocery run like getting milk / bread etc 

3) be able to cook 1 meal on her own independently and if there isn’t any food in the fridge, she can do 2)

4) also train twins to come back from sch on their own.

In the mid term. The goal is still to let the helper make Joash zzz be it for nap or night time. 

Feeling so much better after having the honest conversation. We are together in this partnership long term. We need to cover each other’s ass. 

1611

Today’s our 16th wedding anniversary, on this special 11/6. I thought the date looked super pretty today.. haha..

We didn’t have any celebration this year. The main reason was because we just came back from a staycation and we are going to malacca tomorrow, and the little boy suddenly fell sick, on the eve of our wedding anniversary. 

We barely zzz much last night, I definitely zzz more than william coz boy needs him for bedtime.. hahah.. and that to me, is the best wedding anniversary present.. to be able to sleep, coz both of us are so sleep deprived nowadays! 

Lunch today was Teochew porridge at our neighbourhood while dinner was at my mom’s place. Even my mama was surprised that we didn’t do an eleborate celebration this year. 

I know it sounds cliché but rather than receiving flowers or spending a hefty price on food, I’m more thankful for him being my safe anchor, my partner in this parenthood. 他让我很放心就算天大的事，我们会一起承担。这对现在的我来说，是最重要的。

To the man who says he's a frog just so that I can be his princess , happy wedding anniversary. . May we continue to grow old together..  loving u more each day and thankful for taking care of all of us!

03.02.2005 received this bouquet of sunflowers 🌻 from u. I felt irritated that u kept haunting me like a ghost despite severing our ties moons ago. 我觉定那晚约你 肯你说清楚. 

Having just ended my 2nd r/s, I have no plans or mood to start another 感情. I just wanted him to stop pestering me. He picked me up and we drove for a long time before reaching "dunno where". 

When I alighted, God said to me in the most assertive voice, "Lena, this man is the most suited man for you. If you pass him by, more eligible men would come but none as suitable as him". 

And with that, I decided to marry him. 

That was exactly 15yrs ago. To make that decision, my friends thought I was crazy. My mom wanted to disown me.

July 2005 when we were 15 yrs younger 

To say that God works in amazing ways, is a huge understatement. I never felt so peaceful that eventful night. And we got married 1 yr later, on 11.06.2006. Though my parents weren't approving, I was firm and they knew there was no other way around it. 

Left: our wedding pic; right: at photo studio before wedding 

Fast forward and it's been 15 yrs since that fateful night. Time flies in super speed and before u know it, we are classified as "老夫老妻". On some days, I stand in awe of God's perfect timing for us. If I had gone ahead to apply a BTO with william in 2003, (yes he did the bto proposal), I wont have cherish our r/s. I would have taken him for granted, and we probably wont be together by now. My plans are not always God's plans but His plans are always for my best interests. When we got back together, I appreciated him more and also understood what I needed. We would eventually be lifelong partners and role models for our kids. 

On "battle" nights, I cried out to God..why why.. did I hear Him wrongly? Did He really say best suited? Lol... we went thru many rounds of ironing and realignment to be the Mr & Mrs Choo today. I'm thankful that God is in the centre of our union.

Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments.

Deuteronomy 7:9 NIV

https://deuteronomy.bible/deuteronomy-7-9

2019

Our fight

Quarreled with the man since sat.. it all started when I felt that he was not doing enough for the family n yet still had tonnes of CCA commitments. It was AGM on sat and being the village head meant that he had to prepare days before it as he had to chair the meeting. I knew he was stressed up over it and probably had to fire fight some issues before sat came..

I'm not a supportive wife to start with too.. and thus easily sparked each time he has to be away for such commitments. I admire the support some of the wives give to the family, when their spouse has similar commitments. Unfortunately, I'm still a work-in-progress.

The boiling point came on sat morning while I was preparing to bring vera for her art class, he was in the room playing his iPad games , leaving the other two girls reading their books outside. I was pissed. I told him directly that if he knows he will b out for his CCA later, then can he pls spend some time with my kids now? N by spending time, I'm not referring to just feeding them or cleaning them. (By the way, joy was the one who fed all of us that morning). I'm referring to engagement. I felt that as a homemaker, his tasks aren't that of a domestic helper. I need him to be more involved now that the kids are older.. blah blah..

And that was part 1.

We had a long "discussion" yday bcoz obviously I feel that he's struggling and the level of care we expect is different. I asked him if he would b happier if he would go find a job outside. (Though to be honest, I dont understand why he needs to work and slog. But i have since been corrected by a few gfs that its DIFFERENT.)

He says that his schedule doesn't permit him to find a job which will pay him decent. And since he cant cope even now, how would it b possible if he has to work. (And it's silly in my perspective if I need hire a maid just so that he can go out and earn some monies.)

And that is why he finds joy in doing his CCAs bcoz its opportunities like this where he can have friends and talk and still have a bit of social life. He says he feels empty bcoz he doesn't have any more friends anymore.

I totally didn't expect it. But he is right. He doesn't have friends who he can arrange for coffee or go for night suppers etc. He was always grounded at home. His friends from the past either drifted when we were busy trying for kids or judged him when he became a homemaker.

I felt so bad, for not being understanding enough, for assuming so many things. What comes natural to me might not be so for him. At least every time I need a listening ear, i can always talk to my kakis, my colleagues etc.. but for him, he could only talk to me.. haiz.. why am I so slow?

I need to improve and fight the demons in me so that each time he goes for his CCAs, we wont end up quarrelling every single time or he doesn't come back feeling guilty for going out. It shouldn't be this way. And I will change. Praying that God help me with this new commitment. Amen !

Happy 12!

The hubby and I celebrated our 12th wedding anniversary a few days ago. If a decade was meant to b significant in the modern society , then perhaps 12 yrs means the same in the Chinese way..lol.. like a full circle , covering all the animal zodiac. Just kidding..

If one would see my past and how my childhood shaped me, I certainly won't be expected to get married and with 3 kids ! Even my mama was surprised that I got married so young and went on to have so many kids. And all of this, is only possible bcoz of God. I grew up in a family where my dad always had many other women. His wife , aka my my mom was always v unhappy abt the marriage and how she was "tied" to the family bcoz she was a homemaker and had no means in supporting her kids etc. I rem my bro and I had to be the mediators for their quarrels during our teenage yrs. I also rem being my mom's listening ear and how she always empathise that it's impt to earn my own $, so that I didn't need to 看别人的脸色. What she didn't know was that (subtle parenting) I had decided that marriage was not for me. There were too much insecurities and uncertainty that living on my own and depending on myself was the way to go.

And that was why even after I started dating uncle pig, I always picked on him or initiated break ups. I was like a volatile penny stock, with my many ups and downs. I was without God then. We were both non Christians.

We broke up for the final time in 2004. But God knew better. We met again in 2005, after I saw the flowers he sent to office. Kinda feeling pissed that this guy is still pestering, I called him and told him to meet up. I wanted to end this once and for all.

We went to a park/beach (I can't really rem the details.. lol). What i could remember was alighting from the car and hearing God speak to me. He said that the man here is the most suitable person for me. More successful guys will come after him, but not one as suitable. And with this, I decided to marry him.. and we got married 15mths after this, on 11 Jun 2006

Amazing isn't it? Some friends say I'm mad. We got married when I was 25. My parents objected to it but I had decided. God's msg to me was clear. I had peace.

Did it mean that life was then a bed of roses ? Of coz not la...lol.. but God was the centre of our marriage life. When we had our quarrels, we prayed and looked back at God . When we faced temptations, we prayed to God. God never gave us too big an obstacle to handle. He was always with us, for which I'm grateful. Coz if I'm a normal person without God, coupled with my childhood plus not so supportive parents , we probably won't last 3 yrs in marriage..  hahaha...(my parents have since accepted the marriage.. lol..)

Thankful for God who has sent u to me, who has changed both of us, and who has blessed us with 3 beautiful daughters.

To the man who said he would b a frog, so that I could b his princess; I love you and may we grow old together..

Paktor morning

The uncle decided to bring me out for breakfast.. #paktor.. didn't know where he was going.. and when we reached, I was kinda surprised.. 

It's one of the hipster cafes la..lol.. it's rare for us.. Coz being the practical me, always felt that these kind of breakfasts are over priced.. and indeed, when I saw the menu, my mind were ringing with all the alarms..lol.. "so expensive and will it b filling" and the likes of it.. but of Coz, I can't say right..  can't dampen the mood ...lol.. else next time don't even have paktor dates anymore..

I ordered a French toast and he ordered eggs and toast.. we each ordered a coffee.. 

To be honest, the French toast was v nice..fluffy and not oily.. one of the better ones I've tried..

The bill came up to $45.. Lol.. 😲 this was what I felt in my mind.. hahaha..  damn.. I still prefer my kaya toast anytime..

But Yes, I'm thankful for my man.. for making the effort to spend time together..

Next stop.. can u guess where we are?

Gardens by the Bay.. hahaha.. our fav place...

Came here yday with the kids and my mama but it was too crowded.. so came here again to enjoy the sakura before our annual pass expire this week..

Pretty flowers and matching pink man.. hahaha 

Loving all the pics.. haha.. I'm not as gifted in camera taking as the rest..  looking forward to Rome with him.. haha.. mini moon.. 

And that wraps up our paktor morning..  heading to office for work.. lol.. 

Happy moments

When you need an assurance before you go out on ur own party..hahaha.. 

So thankful for him..its bcoz of him, I get to go out on my own dates..love him to the max.. 😙😙😙

#energybooster #ilovemy老公 

Family time

We went to Gardens by the Bay two nights ago..had wanted to bring the girls to the skywalk coz Joy has been asking for it for some time. And the last time we came over, it was closed for maintainence. 

It was beautiful, the lights and mid autumn decorations. We had to queue for about half an hr before it was our time to go up. 

We took many many selfies while waiting in the queue, and this is one of them.. Vera and her 鬼脸😜 

The twins sitting at the entrance of the queue, while waiting for us to reach. 看着她们的背影, 这是的我感觉到欣慰。我们终于熬过来了。虽然小时候的她们终是打个你死我活,现在的她们已经变成了好姐妹, at least for this moment in time. 😊

至少我还可以跟老公一起拍个照。。看他一头的白发。。他说不要染以为这样会看起来比较老, 我看起来比较年轻。。🤣🤣

The scenery while we were on the sky bridge.. it's beautiful isn't it? Thankful that we are living in this beautiful country, with good governance and stability. Thankful that we have the chance to appreciate what's around us, and spend time with the kids, not busying with whatsnot.. time to love the kids and not breathing down their necks to do homework etc...

May we always have time to appreciate the things in life, to teach the girls the purpose of life.. 

P/s: by the time we came down the sky bridge, it was too crowded and the kids started to fuss abt everything.. abt the hot weather, that they are hungry etc.. 🤣🤣🤣

Guess we still need some fine-tuning.. hahahaha...

Happy 11th wedding anniversary. 11.06.17

I woke up to this sweet msg, on our 11th wedding anniversary. He had brought the kids out early for church and I was home alone becoz I was down with a flu. I thought he had forgotten, coz when I sounded him out last night before i fell asleep, he didn't seem to be aware.

We didn't do an elaborate celebration this year, coz we juz came back from the m'sia trip and he's still trying to catch up on housework. :)

We had a simple dinner at Seletar Mall, at a chinese restaurant with the girls. In fact, the girls had thought we were having dinner at their fav. food court, when Mr choo told them that we are dining elsewhere tonight.

Everything seems perfect, until Vera accidentally knocked onto Grace. It was a light, accident bump, nothing too serious. But what followed was pretty bad. I told Vera to apologise to Grace, knowing well that it was an accident. She refused, clammed up again, refusing to talk nor apologise. This has happened so many times, and trust me, when I said battle, its really a battle. William and I were patient, and we tried to tell her nicely too.. but still she refused. even after we reach the restaurant. Yes, she is that stubborn. We told her that she would only get food if she apolgise. Instead, she chose to cry loudly, screaming loudly (yes, while in the restuarant). In fact, joy was displeased with both of us. That we had chosen to parent at that situation instead of bringing it home. She felt a lost of face, when the other tables were staring at us. I explained nicely to joy, that this is something that can't wait and this is something that keeps coming up every single time. So we have to correct it every single time. I was glad that william and I didn't lose our temple throughout the ordeal. When they say it takes a village to raise a child, I couldn't agree more.

Vera finally relented, probably after crying non stop for 45 mins. (I'm sorry to everyone at Paradise Inn that they had to hear a screaming 5 yr old for that long) Ya, we were almost finishing dinner and I was prepared to finish all the food and let her go hungry if the situation requires. Tough parenting, some might say. Yes, parenting has always been tough. And it's a lot tougher for this youngest child, for she is not of the ordinary.

Moments like that, I just pray that God provide the wisdom and grace to us, so that we be able to lead the girls to adulthood, the strength to do the out of the ordinary and whatever it takes, to mould them,  into righteous women, I pray that one day, they will also understand our intentions. That we didn't intend to be mean parents. It's easy to just give in, and ask the sisters to forgive and forget. But give in to her for a day, and she will ask for more another day.

That pretty much sums up my eventful wedding anniversary. A small victory. And many more battles to go. Thank God for all the mercies.

I love u more (everyday)

The man gave me this yday, after he came back from his daddy-daughter camp in sch. It was heartwarming to receive notes from him and his words touched my heart. I am indeed grateful, to have him as my hubby, my partner, my best friend, my soul mate. And I couldn't agree more, that I love him more than yday and the day before. I love him more everyday. 

I remember attending a colleague's wedding many yrs ago, and during the church wedding, the pastor asked the audience for a show of hands, who loved their spouse as much as they first gotten married. Almost everyone raised their hands, except us and a few others. We whispered to each other, " I love you more, with each passing day." Shortly after, the pastor explained to the crowd that we should love each other more, as time passes. I was grateful that mr choo and i are on the same page on this. It is a commitment, a responsibility and a pledge to remember to always hold the hand, and not be distracted with other milestones/goals/whatsnot in life.

It is easy to be distracted, be it the temptations of the world, work or even kids. Some of my friends are holding on to their marriage is solely becoz of kids. It's sad, coz I'm sure there was love at the start. But over time, distractions came and before u know it, the r/s is broken and the only string holding on is kids.

I believe that the first family unit belong to us first. It's always God and us and only when "us" is strong, then will we be able to hold tightly to kids. And then the bond to kids will b strong too.

Having said that, it doesn't mean that our marriage has always been a bed of roses. We've battled several issues along the way too, and not all issues have solutions. But with all issues, we placed our focus on God. For the bible says " Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you."  1 Peter 5:7

I pray that for all friends, their marriages to always stay strong and for those of whom are going thru difficult times currently, that may they cast their worries upon Him and allow Him to work in yr marriages.

Lastly happy 11th wedding anniversary uncle choo ! I (still) do ! Love u lotsa..