Home alone on a Friday night. Uncle Pig brought joy to one of his long time friends gathering. I can't rem when was the last time I spent fri night home alone. Before he closed his shop, fri nights used to be the nights when I had to pick Joy from sch n make her zz while he does his last min baking for his weekend orders. It was mostly a time when I arranged gatherings so tat Joy will b kept occupied.
It was pretty shiok to reach home at 7pm alone. I had the freedom to do the things based on my own time, my own way n my own routine. There was no need to rush home to make joy zz, or surrender the tv to let hot catch her fav cartoons . I was the king of the house for tonight! Yeah!
Of course, after catching my fav drama n reading papers at my leisure time, by 10plus, I had run out of things to do. Haha.. Tired n sleepy n maybe I shan't wait up for them. Maybe I shld hv gone for the gathering, since all of his friends brought their spouses along. Pity him, he had to bring his daughter along bcoz his wife was kinda anti-social. Haha.. And much as I'm bored now, I think if I were to choose again, I would still prefer "Me time" @ home vs "vase @ social gathering". Kinda critical but thats me & I don't know when it starts to change (maybe with age?) but I juz dread striking new conversations w new pple or maybe shallow topics at acquaintances gathering. And I'm blessed in the sense tat Uncle Pig never pressurized me to attend his friends / relatives gathering and neither would I do so. We had choices. 😊 And sometimes I feel tat he does enjoy his gatherings better when I'm not with him. Coz w me by his side, it's comparing to bringing another infant to the meet up. On Good Days, I would start playing w my hp or signaling him to go home almost immed after i finish my food. On worse days, I start to rebute the childish comments made by his friends, which can be pretty awkward. Haha.. Guess I'm a spoilt child but socializing with not -impt pple is really not my forte. I'm glad tat Uncle Pig is not a typical spouse who expects his wife to attend all the gatherings. I'm glad tat he loves me n accept me for who I am.
Anyway they are back so I shall stop here for now.. Enjoy yr weekend!
Friday, February 3, 2012
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Retinal Detachment : Review
After a mth since I did my operation, I'm here again for a review. I do hope it's the final review although I seriously doubt it as my vision is still blur n I've been seeing a few floaters during this past week.
Nevertheless I'm still thankful for the many things tat has occurred in this short span of 30 days.
From the initial pre-assessment of only having half of my vision for my left eye, to doing an emergency & super traumatic operation on New Year's Eve, and having to rely only on my other senses for the initial few days. I'm thankful to God for his miracle healing. It seem so long ago but its only been a mth when I couldn't even open my two eyes becoz the left eye was so swollen tat it hurt even trying to open the right one.
It was a situation whereby there's nothing much one can do except pray and ask God for protection. It was when I really felt helpless and a time when I could only look to God for peace, for help - complete reliance, just like an infant relied completely on mummy for milk.
Im also thankful for Uncle Pig, his prayers & constant caring tat help speed up the healing process. At the review today, the doctor even mentioned tat it was a test of his love for me. I don't know y he said tat, but it was true. I wouldn't have make it, if not for Uncle Pig.. 他那种无微不至地照顾和爱护，只希望我能赶快康复。我真的深深感受到了，也非常blessed他在我的身边。Actions that may sound trivial but matters so much to me.. Eg, Although it was only required to clean the eye once a day, but it was having so much discharge tat we cleaned it every few hrs, changed the dressing n he made sure the tape was "double-sided" so tat it won't hurt my face with the frequent changing of dressing. When I was well enough to stop putting on the eye patch, I rem asking him why my eye still remained so swollen n red, and I rem his reply vividly " Dear, you have not seen the worse." Indeed. According to him, for the first week after the op, my eye was red swollen and blueblack, very scary. And although the gentle giant was worried n heartbroken, he had to swollen his tears whenever he sees me, for fear tat I will realise how jialat it has become and be overly worried. It's a testimonial of being there for better or worse & how deeply blessed I am to have him as my hubby. =)
After seeing the doctor, he concluded tat I was recovering very very well such tat there was no need to see him again until July! Much as I'm puzzled why he said so, a trip back to my regular optician, Hazel, confirmed this as well. Although my degree will increase by 150 deg n my left vision will be downgraded to 6/9, both felt tat it was already much better than most patients. For this, I'm thankful. The doctor even suggested going to HK since we missed out previously! Haha.. Such a sweet doctor.. Sweet tat he remembered. I've made my new pair of glasses today and so looking forward to wearing them ! Thank God also for Hazel, who was alert n highlighted the problem. She even called me a few days ago, juz to check my recovery process, something beyond her call of duty.
Thank you also to all who prayed for me before, during and after the op. Thank you for all yr prayers and love.
Nevertheless I'm still thankful for the many things tat has occurred in this short span of 30 days.
From the initial pre-assessment of only having half of my vision for my left eye, to doing an emergency & super traumatic operation on New Year's Eve, and having to rely only on my other senses for the initial few days. I'm thankful to God for his miracle healing. It seem so long ago but its only been a mth when I couldn't even open my two eyes becoz the left eye was so swollen tat it hurt even trying to open the right one.
It was a situation whereby there's nothing much one can do except pray and ask God for protection. It was when I really felt helpless and a time when I could only look to God for peace, for help - complete reliance, just like an infant relied completely on mummy for milk.
Im also thankful for Uncle Pig, his prayers & constant caring tat help speed up the healing process. At the review today, the doctor even mentioned tat it was a test of his love for me. I don't know y he said tat, but it was true. I wouldn't have make it, if not for Uncle Pig.. 他那种无微不至地照顾和爱护，只希望我能赶快康复。我真的深深感受到了，也非常blessed他在我的身边。Actions that may sound trivial but matters so much to me.. Eg, Although it was only required to clean the eye once a day, but it was having so much discharge tat we cleaned it every few hrs, changed the dressing n he made sure the tape was "double-sided" so tat it won't hurt my face with the frequent changing of dressing. When I was well enough to stop putting on the eye patch, I rem asking him why my eye still remained so swollen n red, and I rem his reply vividly " Dear, you have not seen the worse." Indeed. According to him, for the first week after the op, my eye was red swollen and blueblack, very scary. And although the gentle giant was worried n heartbroken, he had to swollen his tears whenever he sees me, for fear tat I will realise how jialat it has become and be overly worried. It's a testimonial of being there for better or worse & how deeply blessed I am to have him as my hubby. =)
After seeing the doctor, he concluded tat I was recovering very very well such tat there was no need to see him again until July! Much as I'm puzzled why he said so, a trip back to my regular optician, Hazel, confirmed this as well. Although my degree will increase by 150 deg n my left vision will be downgraded to 6/9, both felt tat it was already much better than most patients. For this, I'm thankful. The doctor even suggested going to HK since we missed out previously! Haha.. Such a sweet doctor.. Sweet tat he remembered. I've made my new pair of glasses today and so looking forward to wearing them ! Thank God also for Hazel, who was alert n highlighted the problem. She even called me a few days ago, juz to check my recovery process, something beyond her call of duty.
Thank you also to all who prayed for me before, during and after the op. Thank you for all yr prayers and love.
Happy CNY!
During one of my sleepless nights, I went thru some of my past entries and stumbled upon the conversation I had with my Ah-Ma during the last CNY. It was something tat I had almost forgotten, but the main gist was on "不孝有三，无后最大。＂
I had told her back then tat we were stopping at one, so as to simplify the "explanation process" on why our #2 and more weren't here yet. So much has changed since a year ago. Not tat I now have a "heir" (actually it didn't matter to me la), but the joy of going to cny gatherings n no longer having to face the pressure n questionings from "helpful" relatives was much greatly appreciated. Ultimately it was still a gift(s) from God and I'm thankful tat we didn't have to wait too long for this 2 precious gifts. I know of some of my closer friends are still trying, and my prayers are with them, tat they too get their deepest desire, in God's timing.
Anyway, during our CNY celebration in Melaka, everyone was pretty excited tat I'm expecting twins. This was bcoz I come from a family with many twins history. Haha... My mom was a twin, my paternal cousin was a twin too n whose wife juz gave birth to a pair of non-identical twins as well! So no one suspected tat mine was from IVF (not tat I would hv hide, if anyone asked.), since I had hereditary history from both sides of my family.
Well, the gd side of it was tt I could seek gd advice from these people, on taking care of multiples. But the bad side of it all, was tat they can be pretty insistent on their way of bringing up the kids too. Almost everyone i met during CNY, seems bewildered tat we r not getting either a confinement nanny or a maid to help us. We also wouldn't have help from either parents as mine are still wkg while my MIL is too old to cope w a newborn. My cousin hired a maid, a confinement nanny and a midwife to take care of his newborns while
It juz seems like we are seeking a route with no returns when we decided to juz rely only on me, uncle pig n joy.
Am I crazy to do this? Did I really think thru carefully before embarking on this decision? It juz seem so scary, esp when u talk to these people. Then why did we decide on this? Torture freaks? Control freaks? Or juz simply crazy? I like to think as having had a confinement nanny during my first delivery, was such a painful experience tat we decided to scrap tat idea altogether. I would hv preferred having a maid, but having one also means tat we tend to b more nuan n leave more things for the maid to do. Eg, if we do hv a maid, we would expect her to clear the table after we finish our meals, tidy the place etc. which currently is done by joy n uncle pig. I would want joy to grow up with initiative n not always relying on a maid or me to wear her clothes for her, tidy her room , and many more. Thats the reason why, despite all the rest we can take w the addition of another helper, we decided not to, at least for now until it really becomes unmanageable. And I'm not saying tat kids who grow up w maids tend to be spoilt, but I do know of some cases where the child really juz sits there n expect the maid/mom to do everything n tt definitely is something I don't wanna see it happening.
. I do find another friend who also had twins and didn't hv help like us coz she was staying in Europe when she delivered. And so far , she's been very assuring and encouraging. Hopefully we will be able to cope by ourselves n I don't end up killing uncle pig. :p
I had told her back then tat we were stopping at one, so as to simplify the "explanation process" on why our #2 and more weren't here yet. So much has changed since a year ago. Not tat I now have a "heir" (actually it didn't matter to me la), but the joy of going to cny gatherings n no longer having to face the pressure n questionings from "helpful" relatives was much greatly appreciated. Ultimately it was still a gift(s) from God and I'm thankful tat we didn't have to wait too long for this 2 precious gifts. I know of some of my closer friends are still trying, and my prayers are with them, tat they too get their deepest desire, in God's timing.
Anyway, during our CNY celebration in Melaka, everyone was pretty excited tat I'm expecting twins. This was bcoz I come from a family with many twins history. Haha... My mom was a twin, my paternal cousin was a twin too n whose wife juz gave birth to a pair of non-identical twins as well! So no one suspected tat mine was from IVF (not tat I would hv hide, if anyone asked.), since I had hereditary history from both sides of my family.
Well, the gd side of it was tt I could seek gd advice from these people, on taking care of multiples. But the bad side of it all, was tat they can be pretty insistent on their way of bringing up the kids too. Almost everyone i met during CNY, seems bewildered tat we r not getting either a confinement nanny or a maid to help us. We also wouldn't have help from either parents as mine are still wkg while my MIL is too old to cope w a newborn. My cousin hired a maid, a confinement nanny and a midwife to take care of his newborns while
It juz seems like we are seeking a route with no returns when we decided to juz rely only on me, uncle pig n joy.
Am I crazy to do this? Did I really think thru carefully before embarking on this decision? It juz seem so scary, esp when u talk to these people. Then why did we decide on this? Torture freaks? Control freaks? Or juz simply crazy? I like to think as having had a confinement nanny during my first delivery, was such a painful experience tat we decided to scrap tat idea altogether. I would hv preferred having a maid, but having one also means tat we tend to b more nuan n leave more things for the maid to do. Eg, if we do hv a maid, we would expect her to clear the table after we finish our meals, tidy the place etc. which currently is done by joy n uncle pig. I would want joy to grow up with initiative n not always relying on a maid or me to wear her clothes for her, tidy her room , and many more. Thats the reason why, despite all the rest we can take w the addition of another helper, we decided not to, at least for now until it really becomes unmanageable. And I'm not saying tat kids who grow up w maids tend to be spoilt, but I do know of some cases where the child really juz sits there n expect the maid/mom to do everything n tt definitely is something I don't wanna see it happening.
. I do find another friend who also had twins and didn't hv help like us coz she was staying in Europe when she delivered. And so far , she's been very assuring and encouraging. Hopefully we will be able to cope by ourselves n I don't end up killing uncle pig. :p
Friday, January 20, 2012
It's pink, Pink & PINK!
Today @ 22 weeks, we went for our detailed scan @ NUH. The scan was to cover basic things like the features of the twins n to check for structural defects like cleft lip, heart murmur n such. It took quite some time as I'm having twins, so the space inside me is kinda limited to squeeze two n hv a decent scan.
Anyway, the conclusion of the scan is both babies look fine, with no structural anomalies. And yes, we are having 2 more girls in the family. I was pretty delighted during the scan to know this, even though I was a tiny disappointed at the 18th week scan. But during this scan, I was simply satisfied, that God has given me two princesses to take care, to love and im happy with it. =p
My weight, their weight & our weight:
The twins are approximately at 500grams each, which is similar to the size of a singleton and the gynae was happy with it. Even though this means tat I've gained the most for a one mth period so far - 3 kg this mth & 4.5 kg since being pregnant. But as long as the girls are healthy, it's fine.
Anyway, the conclusion of the scan is both babies look fine, with no structural anomalies. And yes, we are having 2 more girls in the family. I was pretty delighted during the scan to know this, even though I was a tiny disappointed at the 18th week scan. But during this scan, I was simply satisfied, that God has given me two princesses to take care, to love and im happy with it. =p
My weight, their weight & our weight:
The twins are approximately at 500grams each, which is similar to the size of a singleton and the gynae was happy with it. Even though this means tat I've gained the most for a one mth period so far - 3 kg this mth & 4.5 kg since being pregnant. But as long as the girls are healthy, it's fine.
Friday, January 13, 2012
(Nite) Toilet Training for Joy
We've started to toilet train Joy for the nights this week. Joy's been toilet trained since she was 2+, ever for her afternoon nap. But she continued to be on diaper when she zz for the nights so tt all of us could hv gd quality zz at night. So unlike her peers who have either scrapped the diaper altogether or hv reduced their pees on the diaper, Joy remains to be very reliant on it at night.
But the 3 of us agreed tat we will start diaper training once she reaches K1, which is now.. So far it's been quite terrible, with Uncle Pig setting alarm on a 3hrly basis to wake Joy up for her pee breaks. We had wanted to do it on a 4/5 hrly schedule but the first night resulted in us always missing it, and ended wetting the bed when we got up.
Looking at how both of them only getting pockets of zz every night hurts me n there was nothin much I could do. I juz hope tt very soon we will be able to extend the intervals n thus getting more quality zz.
But the 3 of us agreed tat we will start diaper training once she reaches K1, which is now.. So far it's been quite terrible, with Uncle Pig setting alarm on a 3hrly basis to wake Joy up for her pee breaks. We had wanted to do it on a 4/5 hrly schedule but the first night resulted in us always missing it, and ended wetting the bed when we got up.
Looking at how both of them only getting pockets of zz every night hurts me n there was nothin much I could do. I juz hope tt very soon we will be able to extend the intervals n thus getting more quality zz.
Saying Goodbye
It's finalized. Today over lunch, Uncle Pig told me tat he's closing the bakery. The initial plans of doing it from home was scrapped becoz he can't find a fridge big enough to keep his cakes. He had sold his 2 - door fridge to his supplier as it couldn't fit into our house. And the initial plan was to trade in the 2-door fridge for a 1-door fridge but the supplier didn't hv any ready stocks and further waiting will juz mean nearer to my EDD. Thereby resulting in the fridge being a white elephant .
Much as the practical reasons of closing the bakery outweighs opening it, when he finally decided on it, I did feel a bit of sadness n pity. Sadness tat he had to give up his passion, tt he had to sacrifice it for the family, tt he had to say goodbye to this r/s..
Nevertheless , whichever decision he makes, I will support him.
Much as the practical reasons of closing the bakery outweighs opening it, when he finally decided on it, I did feel a bit of sadness n pity. Sadness tat he had to give up his passion, tt he had to sacrifice it for the family, tt he had to say goodbye to this r/s..
Nevertheless , whichever decision he makes, I will support him.
Monday, January 9, 2012
21 weeks update
Yes, it's one of those nights when the Choos have all zzz except me.. Yes yes.. I think it happens to all my pregnancies (actually 2 only) where I can't seem to zzz.. Or at least at nights... So since I can't, might as well do another update on my pregnancy since its been quite a while.
1) Sleeping Patterns
- Like I've mentioned, my zz clock has kinda tilt to another time zone. I kinda am able to fall asleep abt 3plus am, and wake up abt 11am.. And by 2pm, will take another nap.. Then by evening, I will be so super awake.. In fact, I woke up today at 5am and hvnt zz a wink. And i wanna zz at the normal hrs so i waited till Joy's bedtime, which was abt 9plus..Deep zz as at 9pm, which was perfect, but only to wake up at 11pm for a pee break, n ended up feeling super energetic! Arrgh...
2) weight gain
- I've gained 3kg since being pregnant! Sob sob.. N it was only 1kg during the last check up (less than a mth ago)! Need to cut down on durians and Swëët stuff..And suppers!
3) Appetite
- bigger, but still manageable..
4) tummy
- for the first time in Jan, I've really noticed tat I'm pregnant! Prior to this, it juz felt like a bigger tummy due to lack of exercise and such but this few days I've realized tt my tummy is big! Really big! Kinda like due anytime.. Which is not the case! I wonder how I'm gonna survived the 3rd trimester.
5) cravings
- survivable; at least I haven't asked Uncle Pig to drive to Jurong for Nasi lemAk yet!
6) Mood swings
- still jialat.. Not sure if it's due to my pregnancy or the fact tt I'm on MC, thus the day seems longer and thus, more temperamental. Even had a mini fight with Uncle Pig (for reasons I don't rem know already) just a few days ago, after I had promised to treat him better.. Haha.. But he's ever so sweet la..
Okie, brain is sleepy now.. Woohoo! Will try to catch some sleep.. Yeah! Juz rem tat if I hadn't had my retina detachment, we would be at Disneyland now, enjoying the cold weather n buying lotsa toys there.. But anyway, we will be going USS Tom.. N hopefully the weather is gd, n not crowded.. Gd night!
1) Sleeping Patterns
- Like I've mentioned, my zz clock has kinda tilt to another time zone. I kinda am able to fall asleep abt 3plus am, and wake up abt 11am.. And by 2pm, will take another nap.. Then by evening, I will be so super awake.. In fact, I woke up today at 5am and hvnt zz a wink. And i wanna zz at the normal hrs so i waited till Joy's bedtime, which was abt 9plus..Deep zz as at 9pm, which was perfect, but only to wake up at 11pm for a pee break, n ended up feeling super energetic! Arrgh...
2) weight gain
- I've gained 3kg since being pregnant! Sob sob.. N it was only 1kg during the last check up (less than a mth ago)! Need to cut down on durians and Swëët stuff..And suppers!
3) Appetite
- bigger, but still manageable..
4) tummy
- for the first time in Jan, I've really noticed tat I'm pregnant! Prior to this, it juz felt like a bigger tummy due to lack of exercise and such but this few days I've realized tt my tummy is big! Really big! Kinda like due anytime.. Which is not the case! I wonder how I'm gonna survived the 3rd trimester.
5) cravings
- survivable; at least I haven't asked Uncle Pig to drive to Jurong for Nasi lemAk yet!
6) Mood swings
- still jialat.. Not sure if it's due to my pregnancy or the fact tt I'm on MC, thus the day seems longer and thus, more temperamental. Even had a mini fight with Uncle Pig (for reasons I don't rem know already) just a few days ago, after I had promised to treat him better.. Haha.. But he's ever so sweet la..
Okie, brain is sleepy now.. Woohoo! Will try to catch some sleep.. Yeah! Juz rem tat if I hadn't had my retina detachment, we would be at Disneyland now, enjoying the cold weather n buying lotsa toys there.. But anyway, we will be going USS Tom.. N hopefully the weather is gd, n not crowded.. Gd night!
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