Busy week

It's been quite a hectic week even though there was not much wk.. After hubz celebration on tue , we also did a mini cupcake decoration for cell on wed.. The response were quite gd n the kids were all so delighted w it.. 
The colours for the cupcakes were pretty nice too .. Hopefully we get to conduct again! 

Despite the relatively happy news early week, we had arguments also.. He's stressed abt his doc appt coming fri.. N he also feels tat his body is going thru some 'changes' which is adding on the stress.. Lord I juz pray tat u give us strength n wisdom in overcoming this situation.. I pray tat u give us a gd report when fri comes.. Tat u heal him of all ailments. Lord I believe tat u have not forgotten us or forsaken us, tat everything happens bcoz it is in Your plans n what we can do is to do the best we possibly can n leave the rest to U . Lord we entrust this in Yr hands 
-amen- 

Post on 14th mar

Had a pleasant surprise today coz hubz bought durians for me!! So happy abt it.. Haha.. Guess I'm easily satisfied.. 

Also made him a cake for his birthday.. Meant to b a surprise but smart guy forgot to bring his hp n came bk for it n caught us by surprise ! I juz pray tt he likes the cake ..

Will try to load pics of the cake soon

Venus vs Mars

The difference between hubz n me:
He always has a budget for IT gadgets.. With the current IT fair, he has at least suggested a camera, gps, monitor display, pc... So many things but none of which interest me. And when I randomly mentioned abt spending a nite at Raffles hotel to celebrate our wedding anniversary, his reply was "No $$" 
The stark difference in budget allocation between Venus n Mars..maybe God created us this way so tat we can say no to each other's indulgences.. Haha..

Pregnant again?

Pregnant again? With the emergence of FB u come to know the happenings of Yr immediate/secondary circle almost immediately. I'm been plagued with another pregnancy news again.. N she didn't even tell me she was preg when I was telling her abt her fertility issues a few mths ago.. Not tat I wish none of them would b preg but I juz wished tt I didn't know abt it.. Tt mayb I will only know when their kids hold their first bday or eventually when they entered childcare.. Haha.. Much as I'm really happy for them, it reminds me of my barren womb.. 
Anyway this fren was saying how she's addicted to pregnancy, n I was like "huh?" Did I so badly want to b pregnant or I only want a 2nd child, a companion for joy? Much as I enjoyed bf-ing joy, is it gonna mean I'm loving less to my second adopted child? Gasp! Actually it really didn't matter if the child's gonna come fr my womb or not! Wat matters is tt I now believe my heart has the capacity to love another child, irregardless if whether it had come fr me.. 
I guess all these is in God's timing.. N if I had tried adoption a few mths ago I would not own the decision.. But yes I own it now.. Juz like how my r/s w hubz all started.. It's like a full circle! Oh my God, I'm so amazed at how things come together!
Shall started the adoption process once hubz medical stuff r settled. Thank God for His timing.

James 1:21

God u planted a message to me yesterday morning and almost quite immediately, during the evening CG, we are talking about this verse in James. Lord, is that an affirmation from you about the morning message? Is it You who is speaking to me? If yes, can You affirm to me again? Lord, much as I'm sadden by the message, but if it is in Yr way, then I'll follow. Much as I cant comprehend why, I shall follow. If this is in yr way, I wil accept it faithfully.

So get rid of all the filth and evil in your lives, and humbly accept the word God has planted in your hearts, for it has the power to save your souls James 1:21

A little prayer

Hubz juz went to c a doc for a recurring ear prob.. N doc says tat it might b something serious.. Lord I pray to u tat u heal him of all illnesses n tat u smoothen the diagnosis cycle. He will b going to the polyclinic tomorrow to get a referral letter n I pray tt the waiting time to c the specialist will b shorten, tat it will juz b days n not weeks/mths before we eventually c one.. Lord I pray for strength n wisdom to carry us forward in this situAtion.

Our mission on earth

Wats my mission on earth, God? Wat is my purpose in life? Shld I continue wkg here or shld I change to another place ? But if I don't wk here wat else can I do? Something disturbing happen y'day but I shan't say here.. 

Anyway y'day sermon was on mission on earth.. Tat sometimes instead of focusing on wat we wAnt, we shld focus on God's plans for us.. Juz like I Shan't focus on my infertility issues so much tat it totally consume me, n instead focus on God's purpose in me.. Wat does he want me to do on planet earth? Otherwise I will end up super bitter with Him for not granting the things I so badly want (so true right) n feelings of bitterness, disappointment will all be there.. It's also y sometimes we c two similar situations happening with two not so similar outcomes? Then u start to ask God y did u grant them when they ask but not me when I've prayed fervently for so long? You can refer to the bible when Jesus at his last moments prayed for the suffering to b removed fr him, but he also said something " in God's way, if it pleases u" 
Right now mayb He doesn't hv plans to give me another child, maybe He wants me to be a testimony to others in similar situation, maybe he wants us to focus on our wk, on joy.. So we shld juz realign our goals again..