Couple trip part III

The one week honeymoon ended. Was quite thankful to be back home towards the end. Coz I was starting to feel sick, and bored in China. Hahahaha.. 

It was a good break, a good pause to just focus on the man, even though in his POV, I still worked a lot while on the trip. Hahahaha.. oh well.. 

Trying to either approve cases using my small phone or reply clients / advisers text.. this is his evidence 🤣🤣🤣

Thankful to be able to spend this 1 week focusing on him and him alone. Thankful that even though we didn’t tick any awesome Michelin food, or bought a lot of stuff, it was good just to enjoy each other presence. 

It was good to sleep early and it was good to wake up naturally (although my naturally is still abt 7ish). 

We took so many pretty photos, cause he said I will need it for my LinkedIn articles.. hahaha.. 

Funny old man. 

May we continue to grow old together. My man. 

Count my blessings

A huge case that I’ve been following up has flew. 

My heart shattered💔

It’s heartbreaking coz I was really depending on it to hit my TOT. My garden is barren, the few people I’m texting doesn’t seem ready. 

The irony of it all slapping at my face. Just like how I try to motivate my audience, and then here I am, feeling downcast. 

I woke up from my nap abruptly deciding to count my blessings. 

So here goes:

1. I have a healthy son who’s napping with me currently. He’s a joy, and blessing from God. 
2. I have a husband who loves me to the fullest, and he is healthy too. 
3. I have a team of advisers who dote and look up to me. 
4. I have my band of sisters who are always there to listen to my rants whenever I feel down. 
5. I have clients who love me and trust me fully.
6. I am earning way more than a lot of people I know. 
7. I’m learning new things every week and it excites me that I can have the freedom to learn such things without compromising my family lifestyle. 
8. I’ve done my best to convince some clients to top up their coverage and even though they decide not to, I’ve done my best. 
9. I still enjoy doing my work, I’m passionate with it. 
10. I’m healthy, and I have 4 beautiful kids who squabble all day long. I love them even though it can be challenging at times. But I’m thankful that they made me who I am today. 

Thankful for this reflection. It reminds me that despite of what happened, I have so much more. I’m thankful. 

I’m not going to give up just yet. But I’m also not going to let the stress chase me out of my mind. Will do my best, to reach out to my clients, provide value, and updates. And whatever happens, is all up to God. 

Just do my best and let Him do the rest. 

Thankful that I’m able to still have the support and the health to do what drives me. 

感恩🥹

Couple trip 2025 part II

I honestly think, among all his kids, I’m the most difficult to manage and also the most challenging to travel with…

🤣🤣🤣

他真的对我很好。很感激有一个那么包容我的男人。

Told him that next year let’s just do a trip to Bali or Phuket and we can just laze at the beach or villa, so that he doesn’t need to plan til so hectic. 

Maybe it’s age, I can feel that planning even for him, has become more exhuasting. Esp when China is a very different setup compared to the rest of the world.. hahahaha..

Thankful that he helped tick my bucket list - 九寨沟 - 她真的好美。

Couple trip 2025

And this is the start of our honeymoon ! Hahahahaha.. despite all the busyness, we finally made it to this. 

Thankful. Let’s try not to kill each other on the trip 🤣

Too packed

1:05am Recording this moment in my life where my beloved Uncle choo is still doing some last min packing coz the wife suddenly wanted to split her clothes into two destinations - coz we are heading to Jiuzhaigou first and thought probably better to leave one luggage in Chengdu instead of bring all there and back.. lol 

讲很容易。Talk only no action. 

Today’s been one of the days when I honestly wished I could have been more helpful. Or why did I packed so many appts on the last day before our flight, such that I can’t even do without him being the flying elephant with me. 

Well, you see.. after I gave the “Final Sprint” training last week, I decided to fix some last minute appts since I should lead by example. 

And so I did. Eventually my schedule was 11am zoom, 2pm face to face at Balestier, 4pm at office and 8pm Tanah Merah. 

It’s still manageable at this moment. Until R says that she has a candidate who wants to see me, and all of a sudden, it became 11/2/4/6/8.

And cause of the various locations and the hard pressed for time, I had to activate my 小飞象🤣🤣🤣

And from the start of the 2pm appts, all appts were back to back and tight tight. Meaning none of them ended early such that I could take a break longer than a pee break. 

By the time I ended my last appt, and reached home, it was 10pm. And the girls needed us. Brought them out for supper and by the time we came back home again it was close to 1130pm. 

Times like this, I’m thankful that we get to prioritise them. I get to talk to them. 

Joy failed her Mindef medical, not because she failed her physical running or tests. But cause she’s still on her jabs. And no doctor will write her a letter saying she doesn’t need them. She still needs her jabs, and thus the door to that scholarship has closed. Even though physically she’s fit enough to do the sprints and respective workouts. 

She was devastated when I saw her. Her eyes still red from crying. She cried again when I hugged her. My heart broke with her. 

I know it’s not a big thing. I know. And I know it’s probably God’s way of closing a door that isn’t meant for her too. 

But it’s huge for her now. Cause for the longest time, she’s been looking forward to this, to the possibility of being a “soldier”. 

I always thought she would be in the armed forces cause she look so smart in her uniform. And I think she secretly wanted to be there too. I probably shouldn’t have encouraged her to apply for the scholarship. She wasn’t hopeful at the start cause she said she has that health condition, but after going through a couple of rounds of interviews and preparation, she thought she would have a chance. But her dreams stopped here, tonight. 

There was a part of me that wanted to ask William if we should cancel the trip. Cause I wasn’t sure if she would be Okie. 

By the time supper ended, she was laughing with her sisters. But I wasn’t sure if she was just trying to make us less worried about her. 

Praying that God strengthen her during this period, that she would lean on God, and trust that there are many other opportunities that will open up. Praying that she wouldn’t let this incident affect her self esteem further than it already has.

Oh my precious firstborn, I pray that you will gain strength from this and recover from this. We are all by your side, and we will walk together with you. We love you, always. ❤️

I am ❤️

 I’ve always felt NOT GOOD ENOUGH. 

Not good enough when I first lead the team, not good enough when I first joined this advisory business, not good enough even in my teens and earlier. 

But I never asked myself why I felt this way before. 

Until I did the discovery call with Rae. And she asked.

Why do I feel this way when I have so many accolades? When will I ever feel enough? When did I first felt not enough? 

It led to many aha moments. 

I realized that my first memory of it was when I was in my primary school, my smart sibling would always do so much so much better (without studying), while I would study and revise so much and barely passed. 

This was my first memory of it. 

And I realized that it was so silly as I look back. 

And yesterday, I finally asked my advisers “Why did you join me? Why didn’t you choose someone else more capable? Have you regretted? your choice?”

A few were shocked. They thought I was the obvious choice. 

“Producer, leading a team, mother.. how many are there that fits this profile? Why are you asking this!??” one of my Kia asked. 

I was shocked by her reply. Coz she’s also a producer.. and I was humbled and touched by her words. 

I am good enough. 

I might not be the most handsome or earn the most. But I am enough for my tribe, for those who voted for me. 

As I look at the chile qualifiers for my team, I am proud. 

We have so many of us this year. Even when so many are still walking out of maternity etc. 

So thankful for the change in perspective !

我是最好的。Im doing the best i can, as a mother, as a wife, as an adviser and lastly as a FSD! 

I am super proud of how far I’ve come. 

I’ve just done two rounds of training. I did well. Let’s not go down the critical “can be better” route. 

From now on, I want to be nicer to me, myself. 

I’ve done well. Thank you for putting yourself out there, when you didn’t need to. Thank you for challenging yourself to do what you never think possible. Thank you for stepping out of yr comfort zone. 

我很棒❤️