Life is short

One of my relatives suddenly passed away yesterday. He was 64. It was pretty sudden and none of his siblings expected this to happen. 

On the way to the wake, I started tearing. Not becoz I was super attached to the uncle. But more for my own selfish reasons. William will b in his 60s in 10yrs time. Will he even have 10yrs? What if it happens within the next 1yr? And I’ll probably guilt trip myself for cancelling the recent July couple trip etc.. 

Life is short. 

And suddenly all the nitpicking seems so pointless and childish. I try not to, but stress made it hard to control. 

Coupled with William’s update abt Joy condition. Turns out the injections are a little more complicated than we thought. She has to be on it for long term, and while she is on it, she can’t take anything raw/semi cooked, meaning medium rare meats, sashimi and even half boiled eggs. And we weren’t even briefed on this during the doctor appt last week! The nurse that was supposed to teach her the injections told Joy and William today. Thankfully William was with her. He asked if she wanted to reconsider. She said to go ahead, bcoz her joints are in pain. She must have been suffering in silence all these while coz for a foodie to choose this, I can’t imagine the pain she has been suffering all these while. There’s a lot of questions on our mind currently like why and what condition is this exactly ? Or what is the possible outcomes out of all these. Wanted to rush home to hug my kids when he was giving me the debrief in the car. My kid who has seldom made me worry much 🥹🥹🥹

Currently praying for God’s healing on her, that we will witness a miracle on this, in Jesus name I pray, Amen!