I am ❤️

 I’ve always felt NOT GOOD ENOUGH. 

Not good enough when I first lead the team, not good enough when I first joined this advisory business, not good enough even in my teens and earlier. 

But I never asked myself why I felt this way before. 

Until I did the discovery call with Rae. And she asked.

Why do I feel this way when I have so many accolades? When will I ever feel enough? When did I first felt not enough? 

It led to many aha moments. 

I realized that my first memory of it was when I was in my primary school, my smart sibling would always do so much so much better (without studying), while I would study and revise so much and barely passed. 

This was my first memory of it. 

And I realized that it was so silly as I look back. 

And yesterday, I finally asked my advisers “Why did you join me? Why didn’t you choose someone else more capable? Have you regretted? your choice?”

A few were shocked. They thought I was the obvious choice. 

“Producer, leading a team, mother.. how many are there that fits this profile? Why are you asking this!??” one of my Kia asked. 

I was shocked by her reply. Coz she’s also a producer.. and I was humbled and touched by her words. 

I am good enough. 

I might not be the most handsome or earn the most. But I am enough for my tribe, for those who voted for me. 

As I look at the chile qualifiers for my team, I am proud. 

We have so many of us this year. Even when so many are still walking out of maternity etc. 

So thankful for the change in perspective !

我是最好的。Im doing the best i can, as a mother, as a wife, as an adviser and lastly as a FSD! 

I am super proud of how far I’ve come. 

I’ve just done two rounds of training. I did well. Let’s not go down the critical “can be better” route. 

From now on, I want to be nicer to me, myself. 

I’ve done well. Thank you for putting yourself out there, when you didn’t need to. Thank you for challenging yourself to do what you never think possible. Thank you for stepping out of yr comfort zone. 

我很棒❤️