Slow Saturday

I haven’t been sleeping much for the last 2 days - something like what I experienced when I was in Mexico. And this was after doing good sleep for 1 week! In fact I was doing a 8-10hrs of sleep ever since I got back! Then this suddenly happened, and I was sleeping like 3-4hrs again. 

I told William it’s becoz my “bed”went to Japan. Very guazhang I know. And this mere fact itself scares me. Coz it’s something I should learn / get used to it eventually. Either when we travel separately, or if he’s no longer around 🥹. #emogenes 

I contemplated buying a ticket and fly over, but there are so many things here that I want to do too! Do my best for this quarter for work, encourage my kids@work to hit their respective goals, handhold our recent new additions etc 

So I didn’t. At least not yet. 

Hiding in the room after lunch, coz it’s easier if the helper coax Joash for nap instead of me. I need a nap too. 100 things I wanted to bring the toddler out for the weekend, but in the end he chose to stay home to play toys. So we did. Played bubbles too, together with lotsa meltdowns sandwiched in between. I’m not a perfect mom. And sometimes my kids feel that I behave more like one than them. And it’s easy to feel stressed and overwhelmed and incompetent when things don’t go the way I want. Need to keep reminding myself that everyone struggles as a parent (in one way or another), just that seldom do people post abt it online. It’s always abt painting the successful image or the happy kids image, which doesn’t happen 24/7. 

Anyway, I should just remain focus and be thankful that my kids are healthy. I have a good helper who can help with the household, and kids that are tolerant with one another (most of the time).  Tempted to fall asleep even before the kid does. Should I? 🫣😜🤣😴